A Journey Of Mediumship

Before I start rambling on sounding holier than thou, I would just like to state that I in no way shape or form believe that I was gifted as a medium from birth. I never had an imaginary friend as a child, I was never telling predictions growing up and it was only around my 16th birthday that I was consciously trying to develop mediumship.

For me it took a lot of hard work to get where I am at the moment and I'm sure further hard work remains for me in the future.

Well, I was going through a fairly awkward period in my life when everything was going wrong and I used to use meditation as a form of escape, a release from the troubles that were surrounding me. Getting as much information as I could about spirits, mediumship and all things paranormal I read every book that was available and tried every CD I could get my hands on.

Upon playing this regression tape, I became aware of a presence of some sort of energy standing beside my bed. I wasn't sure who or what it was, you just know the feeling when something's there. I began to ask out who it was and to my utter suprise I could hear a pysical voice talking back to me. This was extremely strange as it wasn't a 'voice in my head', it was a real audible sound speaking back to me.

I found myself tuning off from what the regression tape was telling me and asking my own questions as to who this person was, how they knew me, what were they doing etc.. and I began to get an extremely accurate description of this 'energy' who was standing beside me. Still unsure about what was happening and my eyes closed shut I was so overwhelmed with what was occurring. I open my eyes very quickly to see what was there and if indeed in some strange way if I was imagining it. I saw slowly materialize in front of me an outline of my guide. She then told me about things that we had done together in past lifes, places we had been and it was so exciting but it really scared me. I was in no way prepared for what was happening to me.

After the moment ended and I felt her energy fading weaker and weaker I closed myself down and wrote down as much as I could about what had just happend to me. I reluctantly went to sleep, it was so exhilerating but I felt so tired, the experience had really had taken it's toll on me.

The following day, I looked on the internet for the dates and times that were discussed the previous night and to my absolute delight they tied in 100%. I believe to this day that the information that was given then I had no prior knowledge of or indeed was it anything I had ever delved into before.

So going from that one regression tape to finding, seeing and even having a conversation with my spirit guide I was overwhelmed. The following night I played some relaxing music in the background and just let the music take me to wherever I needed to go. I indeed did make communication with my guide again and I do believe that she is my 'main' guide.

I kept communicating with her finding out more and more about her and why she was helping me. Our bond has grown so strong that I feel her around me 90% of the time, even if I'm not meditating or thinking about anything paranormal. It makes me feel incredibly special to know that she is there beside me and watching around me.

Months into this communication I was carrying out a normal 'communication' session and I could sense my guide was in the background but reluctant to come forward. I then got an overpowering even intimidating presence come extremely close to me. He told me that he would keep me safe, at the time I couldn't understand it, for me doing this I was safe and there was nothing to be weary of, and then to be told that I wasn't.. it was frightening. I found out this persons name and feel him around me protecting me and keeping everything safe. I must be honest in the fact that I only feel his presence during investigations and doing communication sessions. I do believe he is around me the majority of the time but just staying in the background.

His introduction has made me realise that not everything that we encounter in the spirit world is wonderful, just as in life. I never take anything for granted and always keep a certain amount of reservation until I feel it is safe to proceed.

I would say that 95% of my communication with spirits is done via my spirit guide. I feel I am blessed with my spirit guide as the work I do is made so much easier having her there beside me. All I do is walk into a property, have a walk round, get familiar with the energies and work out who and what they are.

My guide talks to me and tells me information I need to know, background information of the property, people that have lived there and what went on. It's just like having a voice constantly talking telling me information.

Of course if the communication is blocked for one reason or another, we as a group try various methods of communication to try and encourage a spirit to step forward.

I work with different energies in different ways. First of all residual energy, the energy of an event/occurance that has taken place comes through in a projection style viewing. I only achieve this when I am fully concentrating on doing so. I go into a meditative state, relax and view any residual images that are being shown to me. I simply then just repeat what I am saying in as much detail as possible in a hope that it can be verified.

I feel spirit energies very differently, after a walk around the location I am able to feel what types of energies are around. When I feel a spirit around me, I get a strong head rushing sensation and an icy cold breeze across my face. I also feel female energies are much more stronger and intense than male energies.

I communicate with spirit and try to relay as much information as I can, however I have never channelled a spirit or been temporarily possessed. I feel this is something at this moment I would not be comfortable doing so indeed don't.

I have a fair bit of knowledge about aura's, how they work and what they mean. For me, the aura is an extension of the human body. When I am giving healing it is the aura I am working with, to mend and make stronger.

I believe the colours of the aura vary from person to person and how they are feeling. On investigation I boost out my aura to make it big enough to attract spirits to come close and make contact.

Clairvoyance is an ability I have developed, I don't feel that I was in any way gifted to be able to do this. I have had to work really hard to strengthen this and be able to tune in more reliably to the information I am shown. Now, I am lucky enough that the images I am being shown are far more accurate than they were while I was developing this ability.

The first time I experience clairaudience not from my any of my guides was actually on an investigation. I was down in an area with another member of the team calling out and we were getting a few bangs and knocks from call and responses, when from out of the blue I heard a voice talking to me, again it sounded like a physical voice and not a figment of my imagination. It was such a loud voice I even asked the other person I was with if they could hear the voice answering the questions she was calling out.. she couldn't. This carried on for a few minutes and began to get extremely emotional, when I heard a loud menacing voice say "Get Out!", I repeated what I had just heard to the other team member and no sooner had I said what had been given, there was a really loud bang from inside the room we were in right behind her. Needless to say we left.

I have always been a very sensitive person and I am sure that this is something I had been experiencing long before I was delving into the paranormal. My scariest experience of clairsentience was again on an investigation in an old police cell in Cambridge. I was communicating with a spirit finding out who he was and what he did there, when a member of the team asked what he was convicted for and I got the sharpest painful stabbing pain smack bang in the centre of my chest, for about 5 seconds, it was excruciating!

"Claircognizance is the ability to know something without knowing how or why you know it"

I am sure a lot of people have experienced this of some sort, an extension of ESP if you will. How many times have you been somewhere and something has just come through to you that you had no idea of before.. I am aware that sceptics can easily say that the information that has just 'come' to you can be an extension of knowledge of something you learned or read from days past, that could be a valid point.. but what if it's not.

I rely heavily on my spirit guide for information when on investigations however, when random information is 'comes' to me I have no explanation as to where or how the information and feelings come from.

I have an incredibly close bond with animals of all shapes and sizes and I wanted to use this ESP sense to try and do something different. A book I happend to buy about communicating with animals absolutely astounded me, I wanted to do it.. pure and simple, if it was possible I wanted to do it!! The first time I ever tried this was so rewarding if not a little creepy. I was standing upstairs looking out into our next door neighbours garden where they have a dog. Anyway, in my mind with my eyes closed I thought of her name, really intently thought of it over and over. When I opened my eyes she was staring straight at me, baring in mind I was two floors up from where she was, no windows open and I didn't even speak her name. next I closed my eyes again and for no idea I said 'woof' in my mind.. when I opened my eyes the dog barked.

I left it there, not quite sure what to make of it. It certainly was intreguing but I didn't know what had just happend.

Generally I don't believe in releasing a spirit, even only upto 3 years ago did I think that it was even possible to. The first time I ever did was a really bizarre incident on an investigation. There were 3 other people with me and the vigil was going really slowly so we starting having a laugh and stopped calling out for spirits, then from out of the blue I started to get information given to me by my guide. I was really not expecting it, although I have experienced that activity starts to happen if you are more at ease and raising your energy levels. Before I knew where I was, I was communicating with the spirit, re-telling the information that was being given to me of the awful ordeal this poor lady had been through. I really wasn't aware of how quickly the atmosphere had changed from being jokey to full on intense.

After a while of communicating with the lady her energy vanished and clairvoyantly I saw another women walking across the area from where we were sitting. The other team members that were with me, both heard her footsteps before I had even said that I had clairvoyantly seen her. The lady then walked past where I was sitting to the other side of the room and there meeting up with her was the original distressed lady who now look at peaced like a weight had been lifted off her. They both that faded and vanished in front of me.

I decided that we should end the vigil there as it seemed like our purpose had been served. So in short, I had no idea what was happening till I was smack bang in the middle of it. There was no 'go to light' business, it just happend. I went back later on in the investigation to where she was and I felt absolutely nothing. We have been back to the premises again, and once more she was nowhere to be found.